Why am I visiting Ailee? My heart has called for help and found it at in Ailee's hands. I'm curing my soul, mind and body. I had always been looking for someone like Ailee. Today, when I consider what all I imagined, what all I needed, it is actually a miracle to have found it. Ailee is an angel, a teacher, big and loving mother, a friend, a wise woman. She's incredibly brave, witty and luminously good being. She is a hope for the way out of troubles on this convict planet. I wish myself to wake up from imagination and ilusions, to stand fast on my own and to be happy in a perfect way, but I am worried so much and try myself such little (even though), I learn how to trust myself again, to give love, to breathe, to be myself, this is in fact how I would build it up, I learn how to think freely, creatively and to the point. With Ailee, with her love, understanding, humour. How to perceive myself, my own mistakes, my own life and how to take the full responsibility for it all. In other words, how to grow up, to be independent and to be able to help and serve the good things. How to show myself open to the light, to the truth, to God. It's easy to write it down, but in reality it's sometimes so painful, that I don't want to imagine to do that - I put a stress on this - without her incredibly kind caring presence. I visit Ailee to feel her warm touch, joy, tears, sincerity and individuality. I visit Ailee so that she helps me to wake up and to stand the look at real life as it is. So that I am able to perceive moments as they come during my life, to LOVE MY LIFE, to GIVE LOVE in to dissolve in LOVE all fears and barriers, that have source in my nescience. I visit Ailee so that I am able to love in depth and be a loving being. I visit Ailee since I LOVE her! Lucka Španbauerová |
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